go fuck ass.

i got a job, its pretty fucked.
i mean, i work like every single day for like three hours, or four right??
and still i have no social life anymore.
i fucking wish someone would give me a break like from work on the weekends.
i haven't had a weekend to myself for like three weeks now.
i really, just fucking want to go chill in town, have a smoke or something??
i'm not sure.
fucking messed up at the moment.
i don't know what to do.
i'm in love with a guy, and he fucking doesn't know.
should i tell him or not?


i really haven't done a blog in forever, maybe i should just keep blogging since this is cooling me down....


twilight is fucking shit.

new change.

i've come to the conclusion, that i'm actually less annoying then i used too be.
although, me changing from that has made me into a bitch.
i wonder if i can change again?

ps. Check out the band Falling In Reverse, there FTW. x

:(

i don't know weather or not too tell him.
or is it just me wanting love.

hated.

29.7.07 i will never forget.

i suppose this will be the last day, i will comunicate with this person.
i've stuffed things up big time, and now i don't think its going to happen.
i know i sound like the biggest slut on earth.
but really it was only "tuning" of course.
nothing was going to happen.
i'm alone.
alone for awhile.
i do forgive you for being mad at me.
but i do hope its not for long.
i'm sorry.
myspace tells the story of your life.
nothings a secret, if you want it to be.


i'd write a song about you, in the furture to come.
eventually, i'll tell you about it.
i'd call it, the world above us.
this day, today (1.7.09) i will write it.
i'm sorry for all the shit i've caused you.



ciao.x

i trust you.

i'm in a love sqaure.
can you call it that?

its been awhile!

i've just came back from a trip to New Zealand.

lifes normal as usual.
i miss wednesday (17.06.09) i had the best day.

truth.

Now, the life i live, is becoming more better the past few days, but i mean in the friendship/myself ways, my familys still arseholes. One thing that'd never change.
I've become, strangely attached with a person. Whom, i really think we may have something, but maybe i must be day dreaming. I'm still the same old person, thats a dag and all that slash. But i've learnt to calm myself down, when something happens, and i hate it. I'm thinking of changing my hair this tuesday coming up, and going to New Zealand next week, maybe when i come back, i might have realised something. Maybe make a new change in life. I'm hoping that i will still have this connection with my boy.

HEY.

maybe me thinking i was in love took it too far, i don't know what to do. He's in love with someone else.

(L)

i think i've found the most amazing person in my life!
i'm dead set serious, ahhh!
i think i'm in "like" :)
i'm actually sooooo happy.

Trouble.

I'm in trouble, i've collied with love.
i think i like two people.
but, one may doesn't like me.
i'm not sure, its horrible.
because, one of them i like because he's perfect, and the other well he's just really nice!
i'm not enjoying this muchly.
i wish, both/one of them would just reply. :(
i know, i must sound like a slut.

earth to Anna.

in the last few hours things have changed.
i woke up, and bam.
kinda changed from a distance.
i'm in love.


* i think.

The life i live.

i'm sure some of you have lives which are complicated.
some bad shits gone down.
one: my friend has got her heart completely broken
two: i have this feeling for someone
three: my friends are being cowards
four: family have been shitty
five: i have netball tomorrow, and i can't conserntrate with all this shit going on.

i seriously, have no other way for removing all this shit from my life.



i do feel sorry, for tyn.

Blogger.

Blogging is far more easy, than writing it down on a piece of paper.

Dag.

I'm such a dag, i mean i think twice about things, and it makes me feel shit, but then i figure stuff isn't true!
i have a cold, and i played netball today.
i have a good life?

the one the only.

The only person that knows me, more than probably anyone else ever does....
has gone, i mean he's liking another person.

unwanted.

yeah well, my life is completely, fucked at the moment.
wow, "its"now not replying to me for some fucking reason.
i'm sooooooo pissed right now, i have no fucking life.
lost, useless, unwanted.

Netball.

i today, have just started playing for the tamar jets.
it was, very muchly fun!
but we lost by four.
i'm sure i'm going to continue on with this.

love.

love really shouldn't become between people till there older.

plus, people knowing the business, of other peoples relationship.
i'm stuck in someones relationship business right now, and to tell you the truth, IT SUCKS.

high school.

i hate it.
you get all angry, and then the person that your angry at
starts a conversation with you, and your suddenly, a little happy again.
and then he goes.

trust me, its a bomb shell.

sick as.

tony hawk, is a savior.
play the game, i dare ya.

bring me the horizon, house vs hurricane, the getaway plan, the kooks, paramore, and attack attack!

i worship these bands.

changes.

i get critisised on what i wear and do?
i mean, i got a comment on myspace, bascially saying, oh bmth are trash.
what the hell, who cares, you don't have to listen to them.
ah, i'm actually sick of peoples shit lately, they can go get fucked.
i'm wanting to do what i wanna do, ya heard?

music.

i find myself, listening to hardcore, screamo, deathcore now.
i don't know why?
i've just gotten into it, or is it because i'm always in a really sad mood, and i want to express it by listening to like, bmth? or something.
god only knows.

have i changed or what?

We will never sleep, 'cause sleep is for the weak, no we will never rest til' where all fucking dead.

time after time i make mistakes.
i've probably done a million in this week.

now its time to move on, and leave it behind.
hopefully, i am strong enough to do that.
although, i think twice now and think, that its gunna be another conversation.
another conversation about, who knows what.
but what i'm trying to say, is i'm sick of it.
i'm sick of, unraverlling old memories, and putting them back into one conversation.
its tiring, and empty.
i feel shit after the conversations end.
my life would possibly not be the same.

Decided.

I've decided, my life is bascially over ruled.

i've made so many mistakes.
one's i can't turn around and say, "hello, i'm going to leave you behind"
but, for once in my life, i'm gunna stand up, and push them away.
*alright, no its not gunna happen, i know!

i'm sick of this one person, coming back into my life.
and then going back out again!
its sooo annoying.

"it" says things, tha aren't real!
and i don't want them too be, but "it" makes it sounds so real though!

its honesty, "it" needs.

telling, them that they shouldn't be able to go around doing that?
but, please i do wish that it wasn't always me.

polished shoes.

Saturday.

Really, its gunna be a boring day!
seriously.
there is nothing to do.
all i wanna do, is watch ghost whisperer.
Since, i'm majorly, in love with it.
^.^
you know also,
i'm sick of life?
i mean, getting irgnored and everything, its pretty shit.
and being used by friends?
GOLLY.

life.

i hate how people believe lies
i hate how people like to know peoples business
i hate how love is such a big thing in teenagers life.
i hate how people seem to hate me
i hate how people can't respect me
i hate how you show off infront of people you like
i hate how school is lame.
i hate how couples have to go around and flirt there faces off infront of you.
i hate when girls think there the best
i hate when there is a whole big thing about two people the rest of the school has to know!
i hate when no one believe you
i hate when dirty hoe lies are made up about you
i hate love
i hate lust
i have life





woooooow.

dear miss.

i don't know whyi both writing with these, thinking because i get bored and i just do it.
man i'm terrible.
i've been playing quitar all morning! and my finger tips are actually starting to cain!
fuck.
i'm not in much of a good mood, to be writing this, but fuck this.
my weeks, be social.
went to a funeral on Wednesday, my uncles. That was pretty neat.
i though my aunty did a good job, and held it well.
nothing very interesting has gone on, just normal shit, reading, much, guitar.
You know?
Bye.

12.15am, 31.01.08

a day that i couldn't possibley forget.
my uncle has passed away, 12.15am, in a deep sleep. Next to my aunty.
R.I.P

dam it.
:(
i have to go buy a black dress tomorrow with pa.
i hate dress shopping!
i'd rather where some jeans and a top.
but its a furneral, you have to look nice.
but i really think now i should make a effort with it.
so i'm eager to find a really nice dress somewhere.
Goooooooodbye.

YEP!

Meh, i'm so shit.
i'm like dead basically, i didn't get to sleep in!!
anywho.
i haven't wrote one in a while.
i've been playing guitar bascially every single day!
keeps me up to date. >.<
this is going to be short because nothing i want to abuse has happen lately.
nothing,
zilch.
zerooo.
eh.
Well thats about it.
i haven't really got anything to say.
Have a lovely day.
rofl.
^.^
BYES.

Create a blog.

Well i'm sitting here, basically in the kitchen, writing a blog that no one will read but myself.
>.<
What a fasinating life i have to enjoy!
meh!
its lunch time and my stomic is starving!
maybe after i should get some lunch?
I don't know what to have though?
:
My brother eats everything in the cupboard/fridge.
I get left with nothing, how gay.
anywho?
Lifes getting pretty good actually, after all the shit that went on in 2008, its all good now.
*.*
its lovely.
I'm actually off, short story about whats going on,
Goodbye.