Why do I always fuck up everything. I always do. Always. I miss James, and I hate that I can't see him everyday, or at least 3 times a week like I was able to because of school. But now its pretty much once a week. Great. I am sad, alright?

Boo

Why do I mess things up, I say that I want to be the perfect girlfriend, and I want the perfect relationship, and I thought it was because no one liked me. No its because I ruin it always. That's why.

I miss my friend, Shay. Now that I'm with James he doesn't want anything to do with me. I miss everything. Fuck. Am I doing the wrong thing?